Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Week Thirteen


Yesterday Jakub and I went searching for morels on our friend's land. Every time we go exploring there, it's a completely unique experience. I may be partial since it's the place we got engaged, but it's one of my favorite places in Oklahoma. Every time we're there I think about the past and where our lives are now, and just how lucky I am to be his wife.


Although we had no luck in finding morels, we had quite the lovely hike on the most perfect rainy day. It rained almost the entire 3 hours we were there, but there were a few breaks in the clouds so we grabbed the opportunity to take our weekly pictures. Here's a few of my favorites, but I must say, I love how talented my husband is.


I also love that I have a partner who loves to explore outside no matter the weather or circumstances. It makes me feel secure that our little one will have a full life, not limited by such trivial things as a little rain or what have you. I'm getting very excited in thinking about all of the experiences we will give our baby.

On some level, I worry about how other parents or adults might view our style of parenting. Although we haven't actually developed our own style yet, I see a lot of parents who constantly tell their children "no" and while I understand their reasoning behind it, I don't think that we will always be giving the same advice in the same situations. I'm thankful that I'm going to school for a career that gives me a lot of training and knowledge when it comes to the stages of life and what good parenting looks like. Like most parents I fully intend to be the best parent I can, but I think my view of a good parent looks different from a lot of the people around me. And while I obviously will care more about how my parenting is affecting my child, I will also be concerned that some things I may (or may not) do will offend, or at least inconvenience, those around me.

That went further off topic than I initially imagined, but it is a concern I think I need to "air out."

On another side note, nothing will make you feel freer than wearing some rain boots on a hike like the one we took yesterday. I've gone out to that land many times in my vans, having to vigilantly place my feet in a strategic pattern. But rain boots make you feel like you can conquer the world. I think I purposely stepped in every puddle, stream, or river on that property yesterday, each time with an air of confidence and rebellion.


The night before last, we went to an amazing concert. Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros, with Rocco Deluca opening for them, at the Cain's Ballroom. I love watching bigger bands perform and interact together. And they definitely brought an energy to the Cain's through their music and performance that set the crowd on fire. Granted, there were a bunch of hippies there, I'd never seen a crowd so collectively happy at a concert before. It was the baby's "first" concert and and it was such a neat experience. Speaking of, in the middle of one of the songs Alex, the lead singer, asked if anyone was pregnant there. A few hands shot up and he was like "wow!" and then after a short pause continued, " what I mean by that, is just the miracle of life...WOOOOWW!!!!" It was so funny to watch him get excited about that thought, and honestly so random. I mean, have you ever been to a concert where they interrupt for such a topic? It was certainly a first for me. 


I loved that night, and luckily the three of us have a couple more concerts to look forward to in the next week, and then also in April. 

I couldn't ask more for my life right now, I'm so content and feel so lucky to be a part of all that is happening.

Also on that note, I'd like to say thank you to everyone who has offered support or well-wishes since we shared our news. It has been so heart warming to know we are so loved!

And one last thing about this past week (when I was 12 weeks), which I will keep it short because this is a long post. We had an appointment with our midwife and when she began to measure me, she exclaimed that I was growing right along, and then saw that I measured at 14 weeks! She said that there's a possibility I could be further a long than we are thinking, or the baby might have gone through a growth spurt. We won't find out until our 20 week ultrasound if we are as far along as we previously thought, or if this baby is just growing at its own pace (which hopefully will not equal a big baby!) I guess we'll just have to wait and see! 

Have a good day everyone! Thanks for reading!


Monday, March 12, 2012

One down...

Well my first trimester is over and done with. It was filled with so many unexpected feelings, ideas, and experiences, but I've really enjoyed it so far.

The greatest feelings came from getting to tell our family and friends in such creative ways, and none of them catching on until just the right time, and getting to feel their excitement and love for us.

I had no idea the wide range of emotions that come with the idea of becoming a parent and taking on the responsibility that lay ahead of us, but luckily I have some great friends to settle my nerves and re-spark my excitement every time I need it.

We found our midwife early on, and I'm so thankful that I did some research on the kind of birth I wanted beforehand so that I wouldn't be starting from scratch. I really feel like my midwife can offer me the best chance I have at the birth I want and I'm so excited to see how that will play out.

We had two ultrasounds in the 7th and 8th week, and it's amazing to look at them and think of how developed the baby is now. It's quite astounding that in a measley 6 weeks, the baby has grown from the size of a lentil to a lime! We heard its heartbeat for the first time on February 28th and that was an amazing feeling. I keep convincing myself that I'm not really pregnant, so I end up reliving the "I'm pregnant!" realization each opportunity I get to hear or see it live.

The constant nausea and fatigue ended on the sunniest day of my ninth week. This was the biggest blessing and I feel so lucky to have not gone the full trimester feeling like I had been. We also made our first baby purchase, and started moving things around to make room for this little lady (or fella).
 [we both think it'll be a girl]

In my tenth week, I started showing. While I understand it was probably only noticeable to me, I was so stunned because of how quickly I felt my body was already changing.


The eleventh week came and I started feeling flutters in my stomach. Now, I'm not saying for sure this is necessarily the baby since I've never known what that feels like, but it doesn't seem like it could be anything else. That, or I'm crazy. We also started a little library and record collection for this baby and I'm getting very excited of the possibilities with introducing it to the things we love.

Yesterday was 12 weeks and I feel like I'm well into "the fat stage" of pregnancy. However, I'm trying to enjoy each moment of this little roller coaster, instead of wishing for things to speed up or slow down, and that includes feeling like I'm trying to fit into clothes made for a little girl. I will certainly never take this stage for granted.


I'm now onto my second trimester and I hope it's filled with as much joy, adventure, and love as the first.

 I'll try to keep this updated as best as I can, but these next two months will be a ringer with school.
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