Change of Plans

I'm not good at making them and I'm not good at keeping them, so I'm just going to change the plans I had for today's post. But for good reasons!
1. I thought it'd be better if I could show you the Polish traditions so hopefully I'll sneak a few photos when we get together on Christmas Eve and then share them.
2. There's just so much going through my mind right now that I think would be better, for my sanity, to get out on a post.

So, don't think of this as not following through on my word, think of it as following through in a better, more efficient and fully responsible way.(Yes, I try to make my lack of discipline look easier on the eyes... and self esteem)

Back to where I was going...well, maybe this should be a post with bullet points because I'm not sure if there's anything that sounds remotely connected.
So, without further a due, welcome to my mind.

• Sometimes I'm paralyzed by the thought that my life won't amount to much, that all I'll ever do I've already done.
• It seems like it's been close to a week without milk in the fridge and I don't know how I've gone on this long (I drink milk with EVERYTHING. there's no better combination than milk and everything.)
• The best part of my day begins when I hear my husband pull into the drive.
• When I get inspired, like really inspired, I almost don't know what to do with myself because there's so many things I want to do at once, and I'm rather indecisive.
• I recently finished a book that said I can come off as indecisive because it's difficult for me to make snap decisions, that I need enough time to weigh through the options. Which makes perfect sense so I guess the problem is, when I get inspired, by the time I make a decision, the inspiration is gone.
• I crave asian buffets for the soft serve ice cream. And I get upset when one doesn't have sprinkles.
• I love my family, no matter how dysfunctional or crazy we all are. 
• If there's one thing I feel is missing from my life, it's a closer relationship with my brother and sister.
• Whenever I see someone that I haven't in quite a while, even if we were best friends in elementary school, I NEVER think they'll remember who I am, so I never say anything.
• I'm ready to get my first visible tattoo!
• After 3 years, I STILL want to learn capoeira
• I don't understand why I struggle so much with getting myself to do the things I enjoy doing. It's not the time, or any other factor than getting up and doing it.
• I want to be good at one thing. (well actually, several things) but I want to feel confident in myself with doing at least one thing, so much so that I'd share it with other people.

So there's just a few thoughts going through my head in the last few minutes. Maybe I need to do this more often, because even though this can't be interesting to anyone else, it felt like I did a quick clean up in the brain. A little clean sweep, if you will. So sorry, this post was completely for me.